kim

awcrap @ 2005-09-21T02:41:00

2005-09-21T09:55:55Z

cant seem to fall alseep. talk and thought of nightmares makes me think that a not so swell time is waiting for me in my dreams. dumb. murder and rape. too many crime shows on tv now a days. i need excersise. im restless. brain runs too fast. my body needs to catch up. i wish i knew an elf.

awcrap @ 2005-09-20T02:19:00

2005-09-20T09:34:19Z

well dude, its been a while since i wrote in here, which is ok with me. my state of mind has been changeing. mostly for the better. pills have been coming of of my ass intead of going in my mouth, and it feels good to say that im done with that. though i do still pop the sleeping pill, but im not going to count that cuz ive come far enough to say that. progress motherfuckers. im taking some classes now. only miss one class so far. once again, progress mother fuckers. i do things to fill up my time, but yet still dont have a hobby inparticular that i am intrested in. ive been tired, but i feel somewhat motivated which is new and i must say exciting. i can call myself content. and i will. and im happy with being content. hip. hip. horray.

awcrap @ 2005-08-23T00:39:00

2005-08-23T07:42:03Z

wtf is really what i am feeling like. i want to shit myself and then go to bed. night

awcrap @ 2005-06-08T02:49:00

2005-06-08T09:53:12Z

im having problems sleeping. i wish that i third hand grew from my spine so that i could have my back scratched 24hours a day. i would have less trouble sleeping then.

awcrap @ 2005-05-09T08:11:00

2005-05-09T15:12:32Z

I'M SO FUCKING UNHAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

awcrap @ 2005-04-05T01:33:00

2005-04-05T08:34:26Z

no medication in my viens makes them shake like they were starving.

awcrap @ 2005-04-05T00:02:00

2005-04-05T07:25:56Z

before i die i will give cancer a black eye for what it has done to my life. i more than hate it.

awcrap @ 2005-03-31T12:24:00

2005-03-31T19:25:00Z

worst day of life and its not even twelve thirty.

awcrap @ 2005-03-23T03:22:00

2005-03-23T10:25:22Z

kim is in process of mental break down

awcrap @ 2005-03-19T23:32:00

2005-03-20T06:33:24Z

i spent the morning on the mountian. watching the clouds roll back. i didnt feel like i escaped from anything this break. still feel like im stuck in some mess that i created myself.

awcrap @ 2005-03-17T14:33:00

2005-03-17T21:35:21Z

found out not going to gila, very much so bummed out about it. leaveing to somewhere anyway. need a vacation. see you in some days. seems like disapointment waits at my dooor step like a well trained dog.

awcrap @ 2005-03-12T14:56:00

2005-03-12T21:58:39Z

dont belong here
throw me westward
hopefully i wont be a yoyo this time
its time for me to fade out

awcrap @ 2005-02-27T04:28:00

2005-02-27T11:28:19Z

think of how entertaining it would be if all the people on TV still had their original teeth.

awcrap @ 2005-02-27T04:12:00

2005-02-27T11:14:08Z

And the wall is coming down
If life is a game I hope I get to play it with friends.

You will never be happy if you are searching for happiness,
you will never live if you are searching for the meaning of life.

awcrap @ 2005-02-21T18:49:00

2005-02-22T01:49:50Z

and finally a breath of fresh air.

awcrap @ 2005-02-15T01:21:00

2005-02-15T08:23:13Z

im fucking lonely.

awcrap @ 2005-02-13T14:15:00

2005-02-13T21:18:14Z

"how do you pick up the threads of an old life? how do you go on? in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back. there are thing that time can not mend. some hurts that go to deep. that have taken hold."

awcrap @ 2005-02-12T16:29:00

2005-02-12T23:30:02Z

i believe that i have gone insane........ again.

awcrap @ 2005-02-12T03:34:00

2005-02-12T10:35:05Z

http://www.u.arizona.edu/~camp/mickey.jpg

awcrap @ 2005-02-12T03:19:00

2005-02-12T10:25:57Z

i'm not sure what to say. im too confused about death, and life, and friends, and goodbyes to know. all i know is that this wasnt supost to happen and that i am making many more copies of little blue cards.

awcrap @ 2005-02-07T02:02:00

2005-02-07T09:04:37Z

WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED? WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED? FUCK FUCK FUCKC FUDFKDSHJDUFJCMCUFJFUDFNJDNBDJFKDEHDUFJDIASHBADLIUEjh hbvfuyvbaqo chb what the fuck? FUCK I-D-O-N-O-T-U-N-D-E-R-S-T-AN-D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

awcrap @ 2005-02-02T01:21:00

2005-02-02T08:22:51Z

i feel like Gollum. and Gollum's song is the one i'm singing.

awcrap @ 2005-01-31T14:54:00

2005-01-31T22:02:05Z

i'm not sure what i am doing. ive been flooded for so long that i ran out of breath and just letting the tide take me whereever cuz i know it will be better then this state of mind. i planted a garden this weekend. i stumbling at school. and spend my days in my room feeling nothing. listening to other explainations of myself. still in prosses of getting of my meds down to four pills a day. hardest thing i think that i have ever done in my life. everyone says to stop. and i need the sea. and i need something.

awcrap @ 2005-01-18T00:43:00

2005-01-18T07:55:05Z

everything is to fast to see when i am standing still. i walk on the cracks on campus. i dont know how to express myself without screaming on my knees with water eyes. i can feel mybody breaking into pieces by the hour. always on time. everything feels lonley. everyone feels father than a phone call away. and so i come to a stand still and everything blurs and my confusion puts my hands to face to weep. and im trying to finish this but there is too much to say to finish a sentence.

awcrap @ 2004-12-19T16:24:00

2004-12-19T23:38:01Z

imm curious about who i am about to become. what it feels like to stop trying to find yourself and and enjoy the roses. i went to sabino caynon after the rain hikes for hours and then spent more than hours with my feet in a waterfall. i did bad in school this semester due to me fucking up. im still working on getting off my medication. its been makeing me sick. but i couldnt care less in this case. im glad i can finally be done with it. its been a bad semester. all i can say is that i am confused.